– Secret Place Insights –
Dear One, as I was about to rise from my computer, I was angry. I tried to stuff the anger down, for I knew it was misplaced, and shameful. Even before I began voicing my anger, I was admitting how wrong it was to react as I was, but though I tried, it seemed I could not hold it back. I should have called out in prayer, either against sin and Satan, for God’s help and forgiveness, or both. I did not. I was angry with God, and for a few minutes it seemed that I could not resist, I went with it, like a raft on a raging river. “God, I know that You can make all things right. Make this right. Make this right. You can. This is not fair. I will not deal with this any longer. I cannot stand it. God hear me. You do hear me, but You do not make it right. God it is time.”
With that I rose, a guilty, unrepentant child, ashamed, but clinging to my cause, much like a defiant child in the presence of a proven wise and loving parent. When I turned, there on my quiet-time desk, lay my open Bible to Psalm 119. To leave the room, I would have to walk past it.
I moved closer, and stood looking down at it, mad at myself, and unhappy with God. Nonetheless, God is God, and I am not. I yielded…and read:
“Remember Your word to Your servant,
for You have given me hope.
My comfort in my suffering is this;
Your promise preserves my life.
The arrogant mock me without restraint,
but I do not turn from Your law.
I remember Your ancient laws,
O LORD,
and I find comfort in them.”
Psalm 119:49-52.
Once again, I found that God, as always, had heard my call. God, as always, had provided. God, as always, was trustworthy. God, as always, had comforted me. God, as always, was God, and I, as always, was not. Instant recovery was mine. No, I did not sit down and read or pray more. With my head on straight, I walked out of the room…ready to serve an all wise, loving God.
“But the Lord is faithful, who will establish you and
guard you from the evil one.” 11 Corinthians 1:22
Blessings,
Susanne
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