– Secret Place Insights –
Dear One, I received a prayer request for a friend of a friend. The request was for a woman who had recently lost her only child, a son, probably due to drugs. I mention the possible cause because when the reason for death seems to be one which could have been avoided it makes the loss even more devastating.
On top of the devastation the woman decided that she was ‘Done with God.’ Done with God. That decision, if carried out will be a greater loss than that of the child. I understand that that statement may seem to be a lie, but it isn’t. Life, above all else, is about God and our relationship with Him.
Have you ever thought about, considered being, or wanted to be done with God? I have…a number of times. Oh, thankfully not for long. Perhaps not more than a few hours here or there, or possibly a large part of a day, but long enough to realize that no one can be done with God. The ‘my way or no way’ criteria for faith makes faith an impossibility. God is God, and I am not. At such times, even though I somehow manage to shake off the thought of being done with God, I walk around ‘numb,’ feeling only emotional pain. Pain which makes breathing an effort because of a heart so heavy it could conceivably be made of lead.
Silly me, the Throne is for God, not me. My place is prostrate at His feet, ready to do His bidding. And, for the most part, that is the only place I care to be, but there are those valleys, or sudden, sink holes, which suck me in, and bury me. I cannot breathe. Only God can save me, and He does…every time.
One of those horrific sink holes has engulfed the dear suffering mother, the mother of a son who now resides outside her reach. Oh, that she could somehow manage to reach for God, even in anger. Please pray that she will.
I remember, not too long ago, going into my quiet-time place with a lead heart, pouring out my sorrow, and then hearing these words, “I feel worse than you do.” What? God? You feel worse about this than I do? I was stunned. The new awareness of the depths of God’s love helped lift me from my chair out into my day. And that’s what I would like to share with the woman.
For God loves her son more than she does, and He loves the woman more than anyone ever will. God is for her, always, always, always. God’s ways are not our ways, for He is all knowledge and all love, and all Truth, and we are not. We are not our own. God created us, gave us the breath of life, and blessed us even while we were in the midst of rebellion. It is only within a state of wild desperation that we can even image that it is possible to be done with God. Our being done with God can only take place when He decides to be done with us.
Since God is God, and we are not. We have but two decisions – to be obedient or disobedient. One path encounters earthly difficulties, and so does the other, but the final eternal outcome is worlds apart.
It is so very sad that many of us, when we hit bottom, and turn our backs on God, do not quickly turn around again, and allow Him to give us a hand up. He waits to do just that. If you are disappointed with God, I would like to pray for you. You may contact me privately through the Contact found on the right side of the Pages.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,
saith the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are
my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9 KJV
Blessings for another week,
Susanne
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